This is my third entry for the night/morning(just like lastnight/morning)... During the next few days I'm going to give a break down of my day... a timed journal of the days leading up to my marriage day.

11:20 pm - Watching Nip/Tuck right now. This is a really addicting show... Also talking to Starla about some wedding plans.

11:49 pm - I'm a bit hungry. I'm craving Dominos Cheesy Dots right now. It's such a shame that Dominos discontinued them... I worshipped them! -snifflesobwhine- They were so so so good.... -drool- I loved how they were just three bites to eat it... and they were fluffy on the inside with cheese on top of it... and the cheese that was around the edges was cooked to a nice crispiness... How could Dominos do that to me?!

12:01 pm - Nip/Tuck is over... I'm looking into Breast Augmentation... I really would like my breasts to be a cupsize bigger. I hate my breasts! I'd like a moderate profile(not high profile, it looks too fake) in 480 cc's. But I'm going to take a shower now... so I'll write more later.

12:45 pm - Done with my shower, and I'm sitting her with a face mask on and bleach on my teeth... it's not comfortable... I'm drooling....

1:22 am - Nip/Tuck is on again... they were talking about masochists... someone who likes pain. I wonder... am I a masochist? I like pain... I enjoy pain... sometimes I put myself through pain(usually when I'm in the down side of my borderline). In fact, right now I'm kindof yearning pain... but I will not cut myself so close to the wedding... I don't want anyone to see cuts on me.

1:58 am - Bleaching my teeth again.

2:27 am - Couples Fear Factor is on... it's kinda icky, but interesting. I wonder if Sean and I were on that show if we'd make it past the first round. I think we would. The second round I'd have trouble with... that's usually eating something gross, or putting something icky(like bugs) in your mouth.

2:52 am - I think I might have stomach ulcers... my stummy always hurts. I think it's due to stress... and I'm really stressing now. I found something that disturbs me, but I'm not going to talk about it here until I find out the info on the subject. I don't want to make Sean seem bad if he's really not... I'm looking up info on how to reduce stress. What are sources of stress? Change of any kind can induce stress because of:
fear of the new, the unknown
feelings of personal insecurity
feelings of vulnerability
fear of rejection
need for approval
lack of tolerance for ambiguity
fear of conflict
fear of taking a risk
fear of developing trust
fear of inability to cope with changed circumstances
More info is (here).

3:21 am - Who's Line is it Anyway is on... this should reduce my stress by laughter. I also got a sprite... yum... Still wanting Dominos Cheesy dots...

4:06 am - More Who's Line. It's such a funny show... I love it!

4:32 am - Ok, I'm feeling sick... my stomach hurts so badly. I think I'm just going to go to bed...