I decided to do research on smoking... I've been smoking a lot more recently. I don't know why... I mean, I'm not stressing or anything. And I slightly start to feel myself getting addicted to it. I had to argue with Sean to give me a cigarettes. I don't want to get addicted to the point where I cannot stop... so I'm just going to stop now.

So to help me with quitting, I looked up info about smoking...

Harmful Chemicals in Cigarettes (This is a good site that tells you what all is in cigarettes, very scarey and gross... you're smoking Formaldehyde, Benzene, Acetone, Arsenic!)

Smoking From All Sides (A great site that tells about smoking from both sides, not just a biased side)

Smoking: A Bad Break (This site explaines about how smoking weakens your bones. I'm a woman, and women are prone to osteoporosis normally, so smoking would make it worse).

I'm suddenly getting into a health freak stage. I want to exercise more... but I can't in this small dorm room. I can't wait to get on base housing so I can exercise. I want to do yoga, and tae-kwon-do, and sit ups, and pushups, and kick-boxing... And so I've looked up information about exercising...

Kickboxing (This site has virtual training)

Yoga Site (Great info about how yoga can help your life)

Ladies Home Journal Yoga Positions (This site has a ton of great positions)

Taekwondo (It's got information about the ethics of tae-kwon-do as well as the forms & patterns)

I also want to eat healthy... in fact, I'm thinking about possibly becoming a vegetarian agian. I don't think Sean is too thrilled about the idea. Some of the vegetarian food is quite pricey. And he likes meat. But I think he should at least try some of the food I make.

I used to be a vegetarian... until I became poor and ate what I could get, even if it was meat. Of course, being a vegetarian is hard, and unhealthy if you don't know what you're doing... so I was thinking about only becoming a partial vegetarian(meaning I'd only eat white meat). Of course, I'm still debating on this idea. Should I, or shouldn't I? I'm so indecisive.

Vegetarianism (A nice site with recipies and information)

Vegetarianism in a Nutshell (Another great resource site)

Beyond Vegetarianism (Yet another great site about vegetarianism)

Not only that, but it's difficult to actually do. I mean, I could always make out health plans... on Monday I'd do yoga for 2 hours and then eat this and that. On tuesday I'd do ballet, and eat this and this. And so on... however, I'd never follow the plans. Perhaps it was because I never had support. Perhaps because I never had anyone to do this sort of stuff with... to support, and to be supported by.

I just have no willpower...

I'm going to try again... working on my health. I'm going to stop smoking for above reasons. I'm going to eat healthier. I'm going to exercise. I'm going to work more on personal hygiene. I'm going to think more positively. That should help with my health in all areas.

Hmmm... maybe I should only work on one at a time... maybe it's just overwhelming? Meh! I'm doing far too much thinking... my writing is growing blah... I'm ending the entry now before my writing gets any worse.