I'm watching Romeo and Juliet, the one with Leonardo DiCaprio and Clare Danes in it. I absolutly love how they set it in a modern day world.

One of the most important issues in the tragedy of Romeo and Juliet is that of choice. Do the characters have the ability to choose what they want to do, or are they simply destined to participate in death and destruction? There is ample evidence of both fate and free will in the play, and the presence of both greatly affects the interpretation of the plot and the characters.

This leads me then to think about my own life. About my own relationship. Was it perhaps fate that we met? I believe so... Yet, the choices we made brought us to fate sooner. I had chosen to break up with my ex-fiance, thus making myself single. I had chosen to go to my mothers house on my birthday. I had chosen to go to the Styx concert instead of doing my laundry. I had chosen to go to the hotel after the concert to drink with a few Air Force guys so that my sister could get on one of them.

I remember the day as though it were yesterday... a blurry yesterday. My memory isn't that great, mind you.

Sean had complimented me on my eyes just upon entering the hotel room. I was far too concerned with being surrounded by too many people, and pushed through the crowd to find a bare spot in which to stand. Then I pulled the beer bottles out of the box to put them in ice. And went to lean up against the dresser next to my friend Diana. There were two full sized beds, one to my left(which my sister, Paul, and Russ sat on). And one to my right(which Sean and Piglet were on).

I remember we all started drinking. And I noticed this good-looking guy(Sean) laying on the pillows at the head of the bed to my right. I couldn't remember his name at the moment(I'm horrible with names). However, I kept my distance, remaining by Diana to drink. Everyone was talking, laughing, having a merry time. Then Russ and Erika decided to go get more beer(though we still had quite a bit left). So they left, and we all started to joke about how they were either going to have sex, or get caught.

So I got a bit annoyed with propping myself against the dresser and wanted to sit comfortably upon a bed. What better excuse to sit next to the hot guy? So I sat next to Sean, and invited Diana to sit on the other side of me, next to the drowsy Piglet.

Talking and merriment resumed with the drinking of alcohol. Sean and I didn't really start talking in depth with eachother for a while. We made small talk, but mainly talked with the whole group(being my sister, Paul, and Diana, as Erika and Russ were gone, and Piglet was sleeping).

Perhaps an hour went by and Russ and Erika returned without beer. They had been caught by the police, warned and released. So we decided that we were going to stay there for a few hours, just to make sure the cops weren't there when we left, after all, they said,"We'll be watching for you." Apparently the police knew Erika(the driver) was drinking.

So we again merrily chatted, and soon enough, Erika and Russ snuck into the bathroom. We all knew they were going to go at it. And we all giggled about it. Sure enough, moments later, after Paul kept trying to sneak in and catch them in the act, we heard them thumping like rabbits.

I can't rememer if it was then, or if it was when my sister and Paul went into the bathroom that Sean and I started to talk in depth with eachother. My opinion came out that I wouldn't have sex with someone I barely knew, that I preffer monogomous relationships. And he said that he felt the same way. We talked about a great many things, from Wicca, to music, to sex, to bisexuality, to drinking, and so on. I remember telling him that I was thinking about joining the Air Force(and I honesty was), but he tried to deter me from it. He asked why I wanted to, and I told him that it was because I was in need of money. So he said,"Then just marry someone in the Air Force. Don't join, it's horrible." Me, being the joking little vixen that I am, laughed and said,"Oh, well, in that case, will you marry me?" And we were then swept into conversation with the others.

Anywho, when my younger sister was in the bathroom with Paul, Russ was excited about the whole sex thing. He was excited that he tagged Erika, and that Paul was getting on my sister. And then he said Sean and I were going to be next, and then Diana and Piglet. Diana pointed out and Piglet was sleeping, and I could tell she wasn't wanting to go into the bathroom with anyone, she's not the type to even make out with someone who's not 'perfect' in her standards. So I joked that Diana and I would go into the bathroom next.

Well, Paul and my sister came out of the bathroom(apparently they didn't do it because Paul can't get it up when condoms are involved). And so Russ grabbed my hand and pulled me off the bed, and shoved me to the bathroom. I was excited because I found some beer bottle caps and began to rub them on the wall so that they would stick. I remember bending over to collect a few more, and I felt Sean's arm around my side. I remember liking the feeling of his arm around me in that spot and so I straightened up as he pulled me into the bathroom.

The door remained open for a while, and he said,"I'm not going to fuck you. But I will make out with you." And the door shut. Occuli couldn't adjust to the darkness fast enough, and our wanting lips had to clumbsily find eachother in the dark. But soon enough we were in the heated passion of kissing, hugging, holding, rubbing, and grinding against eachother. Shere lust.

I enjoyed our alone time. But soon enough, we slowed down, and talked while holding eachother. I revealed that he was the best I've ever made out with(which I regretted speaking right after it escaped my flush lips), and he told me likewise(though I highly doubted it).

We then left the bathroom, and my sister and Paul wanted to try again. So Sean and I sat together on the bed again, and I'm not sure, but I think we held hands. Paul still couldn't accomplish what he wanted, so then Erika and Russ went into the bathroom again, so that she could proove to him that she swallowed. They were in there for a long time. During this time we all started to watch television, and Sean wanted me to lay down and cuddle with him, which I did, but I was a bit nervous(perhaps uncomfortable a little), as I found it odd... I thought I was just going to be some girl whom he played with a little then forgot the next day, some lust toy, not something he'd want to get affectionate with. And in my mind, cuddling was affection.

And then the time came that we females had to leave. Sean looked at me with all seriousness and said,"I need your number". I gave it to him. I stood from the bed and started to move to the door with the others, but Sean quickly got up, wanting a hug. So I gave it to him. As we pulled away, he started to talk. So I stopped from pulling to turn away and walk to the door, and looked right at him. He said something along the lines of,"Really though, don't join the Air Force. I would rather marry you tomorrow than let you join."

Never having anything that utterly sweet said to me before, I was in a momentary state of shock and awe. I didn't know what to say, and I don't remember what I said. I can only assume that I smile nervously and said ok. Then I turned quickly and rushed to the door where my friends were hurrying me to leave.

Immediatly, I told them dreamily what Sean had said to me. Sure, a large part of me believed that I was just a one night thing, but I still wished to hold on to the happiness I felt with his words. The whole way home(45 miles) I couldn't stop thinking about Sean, and replaying almost every instance of the night in my mind. However, when I got home, I fell asleep instantly.

The next day, when I went to Fluffy and Charlotte's apartment, I excitedly told them all about it, and they were excited for me(as they knew the turmoil I went through with my ex-fiance, and the boyfriend after). I couldn't stop thinking about Sean, and wishing that he'd call. However, the next day, my hopes faded, and the day after that, they faded even more, and the next day I didn't think about him but once when I text messaged Erika to tell Russ to have Sean call me(which she didn't relay the message).

Finally he called me, and left a message in my voicemail. I was at Fluffy and Charlotte's, and I was so excited that I couldn't help but yelp like an excited pup. I listened to the message several times while waiting for my phone to charge. And that was how we met.

It was a mixture of choice, and fate in my opinion. Would we have met had I not gone to the Styx concert? I don't know. Sean told me once that he thinks we would have, in another time and another place. As it's fate that we are meant to be together.

Golden words such as these that come from his sweet lips make me feel special, loved, happy, hopeful, fulfilled... undescribeable. Honestly... how is it that I have been so blessed?