s m o o t h

Bluegreen and unseen red

It would take a swipe [clean&quick]

.:And I would know:.

Missing the old sadness, when I was more aware. Now in unfamiliar territory of an ignorant depression.

Lifeismovingtoofastformetopayattention

I know there's blood but I have to draw it to be sure

As certain as the truth, so I can trust it once more

Curlupfetalposition.forsaken.undeserving.indenial.crying.apathetic.

Not understanding, but do I need to understand for the earth to turn and people to breathe? And when involving another living creature there is no warrent to wonder though selfishness.

//Impossible.

Everything seems expendable.

Put me in the cupboard and take me out when you want to play because I am expendable. The pepper for your steak and just there to mix things up a bit when you need variety. I don't know why I'm pepper, I want to be meat. But even in my yearning and indifference I am ground up nonetheless.

Anyeverything in excess is too much.

Life.

I've been popping pills like /candy/.

Numb the pain in my constant headaches.

Sedate the pain in my heart.

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